First post... scared and unprepared

Today I had my first scare heart attack!!! I was at lunch and the Mr. called from the work phone. I just happened to put my purse on my lap (which is where my cell was located) and felt it vibrate. So I looked and saw the number and picked up. I knew it was important because he knew I was out to lunch and wouldn't be calling if he didn't need to talk to me. He asked me when I was going to be home, and said that something had happened and he may need to leave. My heart sank! I automatically thought... deployment!!!! I started to cry... IN PUBLIC!!! I didn't know how to handle this and I was not prepared!


The reason I thought the horrible "D" word was from previous conversations we had. I called one of my best friends and talked to her the whole way home freaking out!!! I didn't know what to think and just wanted him home. He called me on the way home and told me as much as he could... btw... NOT DEPLOYMENT!... So I let out a huge sigh of relief and waited for him to come home. I also let him know that I cried and what my thoughts were.


He got home and felt HORRIBLE because he never thought about the "D" word and coming across as that way. He hugged me and picked me up and made sure to hold me tight. Told me he was soooo sorry and I could really tell he felt horrible about it. I was so scared and was not prepared for deployment! I know it is coming eventually but gosh! Anyway, the Mr. and I had a great dinner tonight and enjoyed each other's company.


I must say you really never do know how much time you have with someone and how it is spent so might as well spend it wisely. Love like no tomorrow and laugh as much as possible!